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Movie Watch: Through My Window

Movie Watch: Through My Window

I nearly turned this movie off after the first 15 minutes, mainly because the male lead (Ares) came off as such a prick. Granted, I still found the “why he acts that way” back story a little weak, but he redeemed himself enough that I was able to overlook that. It also helped that these were teenagers… emotional fuckery is easier to forgive with characters that young.

All in all, this was a beautifully emotional love story that exceeded my expectations. Ares and Raquel had great chemistry, and I really liked most of the supporting characters. Would definitely recommend!

MY RATING: ⭐⭐⭐⭐

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Movie Watch: My Own Private Idaho

Movie Watch: My Own Private Idaho

This movie wasn’t as dark as I expected, though I did enjoy it. Strong performances from two of my favorite actors (River Phoenix and Keanu Reeves), and damn, they looked hot. Call me shallow if you want, but for me, that was the focal point of the movie. I also liked the chemistry between them, and there were lines (especially from Keanu) that were legitimately funny.

Overall? It was a decent movie, though it feels like one I need to watch more than once to fully absorb it.

MY RATING: ⭐⭐⭐

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Movie Watch: My Cousin Vinny & Groundhog Day

Movie Watch: My Cousin Vinny & Groundhog Day

So many of my favorite movies were released in 1992. Bram Stoker’s Dracula, Last of the Mohicans, Singles, Wayne’s World, Buffy The Vampire Slayer, The Bodyguard, Sister Act, Encino Man… I’d see them over and over, especially when they hit the dollar theater.

That’s how I ended up missing My Cousin Vinny. There were just too many other great movies to watch, and hey, I was a teenager. Christian Slater and Luke Perry were way more interesting than Joe Pesci.

Since then… I don’t know why I never got around to seeing it. It’s been 30 years (?!), and it’s been recommended by more people than I can count. I guess it just slipped through the cracks, which tends to happen with movies I don’t see right away.

Anyway, I digress. The point is, I finally watched My Cousin Vinny and I loved it. Joe Pesci was great, of course, but Marisa Tomei was brilliant. I totally understand why she won an Oscar for this movie… she was a pleasure to watch from beginning to end. I especially liked her automotive expertise, which was a nice departure from stereotypes that were all too common in the early 90s.

MY RATING: ⭐⭐⭐⭐

 

For 30 years, I’ve heard people rave about this movie. They go on and on about how awesome it is, only to lose their shit when I tell them I’ve never seen it.

Now that I have? I still don’t see what all the fuss is about. Yeah, it was an interesting concept and Bill Murray gave a solid performance, but it didn’t strike me as some great modern classic. It felt average for the time period/genre… not terrible, but not remarkable either.

MY RATING: ⭐⭐⭐

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Movie Watch: Gone Girl & Judy

Movie Watch: Gone Girl & Judy

I’ve always loved movies about complicated/dysfunctional relationships. Gone Girl definitely fits that criteria, helped by compelling performances from the two main characters (Ben Affleck and Rosamund Pike). I was also impressed by Neil Patrick Harris as the creepy ex-boyfriend, and that sex scene? Whoa.

Overall, I thoroughly enjoyed this movie. The mystery/suspense was well done, and there were plenty of shocking twists. I also liked the conclusion (or lack thereof). It left me eager to know what happened next, so much that I wouldn’t mind a sequel.

In the meantime, I have the book, which I’ll be reading this weekend. I’m looking forward to seeing how it compares to the movie.

MY RATING: ⭐⭐⭐⭐

 

Renée Zellweger is one of my favorite actresses, and I thought she was the perfect choice for this role. She’s so good at playing fragile, vulnerable characters (i.e. White Oleander). Her portrayal of Judy Garland was no exception.

Needless to say, this wasn’t a cheerful movie. Judy’s life was far from easy, especially those final years when she struggled so much with her addiction. The movie doesn’t shy away from that, though it’s mitigated somewhat by bright spots and brief moments of joy.

Strange, maybe, but those happy moments moved me so much more than the sad ones. They turned a tragic archetype into a fully formed human, one who was still capable of hoping and dreaming and loving despite decades of struggle.

Renée Zellweger captured that brilliantly, giving what I felt was an Oscar worthy performance. It was as respectful as it was compassionate, which of course, is exactly what Judy deserved.

MY RATING: ⭐⭐⭐⭐

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Movie Watch: Promising Young Woman & Ladybird

Movie Watch: Promising Young Woman & Ladybird

I can’t even begin to express how much I adored this movie, other than to say it had me hooked from beginning to end. I loved the plot, I loved the actors, the visuals, the soundtrack… in short, it was the best movie I’ve seen in years.

What made it so good (at least for me) was that it was so fucking relatable. Casual misogyny, predatory sexual behavior especially from so-called “nice guys”? Every woman has had to deal with that shit, and I’m sure most of us have fantasized about payback (I know I have). In that sense, this movie was wish fulfillment, though still realistic in its handling of the subject matter. Vengeance comes at a price. The system is designed to protect the abusers, not the victims. There’s no easy way out for Cassie, something she’s smart enough to realize as she follows through with her plans.

Beyond that, I loved how she (and the movie in general) dealt with complicity. The friends who turned a blind eye. The college dean who insisted on giving the rapist the benefit of the doubt. Those who blamed the victim, the lawyer who slut shamed her in order to exonerate his client. It’s never just one person… this movie did a great job of illustrating that and giving the accomplices the justice they deserved.

All in all, a fantastic (and extremely relevant) movie. I’ll definitely be watching again!

MY RATING: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

 

I really wanted to like this movie, but I just couldn’t get into it. “Understated” crossed the line into “boring”, mostly because the stakes felt so low and I never got invested in any of the characters. That’s not to say that the acting was bad or there was anything wrong with the movie. Just wasn’t my jam.

That said, I did like the soundtrack. Alanis Morrissette and early Dave Matthews are always great, and it was lovely to hear a bit of Ani DiFranco.

MY RATING: ⭐⭐

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Movie Watch: Girl, Interrupted & Endless Love

Movie Watch: Girl, Interrupted & Endless Love

I was 22 when this movie came out, which happened to be 22 years ago. At the time, I was the target demographic, a huge Winona Ryder fan, and I was all about seeing new releases. Girl, Interrupted was a rare exception, mostly because I got tired of all the hype.

In the end, it took me more than two decades to see it. Now that I have? I can’t say I was blown away. There were things I liked – Angelina Jolie’s character was interesting, and of course, Winona Ryder gave a solid performance. I also enjoyed seeing Brittany Murphy, though her final scene was hard to watch. It just hit too close to home, an inescapable reminder of what happened to her IRL.

Overall? I’m glad I finally got around to seeing this movie, though I doubt I’ll watch it again.

MY RATING: ⭐⭐⭐

 

This movie was made in 1981, and boy, does it show. It’s cheesy, it’s over the top, and more often than not, the acting is terrible. There’s a lack of self-awareness, a tendency toward melodrama, both of which you rarely see in newer movies.

That’s why I enjoyed this one. It was shitty in a good way, stirring up nostalgia for a simpler (and occasionally cringeworthy) time.

Beyond that, I’ve always had a soft spot for teen movies, especially of the darker variety. This one wasn’t as dark as say, Heathers, though it does involve an obsessive boyfriend going off the rails when he can’t see his girlfriend anymore. It’s kind of like an early version of You (the book series/Netflix show) if Joe Goldberg was far more inept and a little less homicidal.

Overall, a fun movie. Not a great one, but fun.

MY RATING: ⭐⭐⭐

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Movie Watch: Don’t Look Up

To be fair, I came into this movie with a positive bias. I love disaster movies, especially when they involve asteroids. One of my favorites is Armageddon, which I love for its unapologetic idealism and sentimentality. It’s like a time capsule, recalling the innocence and optimism of my early 20s in a pre-9/11 world.

Similarly, Don’t Look Up reflects the world we live in now. It’s rife with cynicism, distrust in the media and scholarly expertise, demonstrating how much faith people have lost in institutions. Corporate greed is ever present, bolstered by corrupt politicians who are determined to use the impending catastrophe to their own advantage.

In short, it isn’t a cheerful movie. It has plenty of dark moments, though those are balanced out by understated yet highly impactful emotional performances and plenty of humor. I laughed as much as I cried, which made for a thoroughly enjoyable experience.

MY RATING: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

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2022 New Year’s Resolutions

I love New Year’s resolutions. Whether big, ambitious goals or “just for fun” type stuff, I thoroughly enjoy making plans for the year to come.

This year is no different. I’ve spent the past couple weeks creating lists and schedules, designing color coded charts, etc. Might sound excessive, but I thrive on organization. Calendars, reminders, ways to keep track of my progress… that’s how I get shit done.

My 15 Resolutions for 2022

WRITING

  • WRITE DAILY
    More specifically, I’m aiming for 208 writing days in 2022, which averages out to four days a week.
  • FINISH NOM
    All I have left is the epilogue (5000-7000 words), so this should be easy.
  • FINISH VOV
    Nine chapters to go on this one (around 60,000 words), though I’m determined to finish it before NaNoWriMo 2022.
  • START NEW WRITING PROJECT
    I love the two stories I mentioned above, but I’ve also been working on them since 2017. I am so ready to wrap them up so I can finally move on to something new.

3D STUFF

  • WEEKLY ARTWORK
    This one is straightforward. I just want to create at least one new piece of artwork each week.
  • WORK ON PRODUCTS/TUTORIALS
    I already have plenty of models for sale in my Renderosity store, though I plan to create quite a few more in 2022. I also want to work on my skills so I can create other products (more clothing, hair, environments, etc). I’m planning to set aside time for this each week.

CREATIVE (OTHER)

  • BLOG WEEKLY
    On one hand, this seems pointless. Why bother posting content that hardly anyone will read?

    Because I hate social media, that’s why. I hate what it’s done to the internet, and I hate what it represents. Greedy, soulless corporate interests killing off small, independent communities and websites…

    I can’t reverse that, nor can I attract the kind of traffic I did 10 or 15 years ago. But I can still maintain my own space, which makes me feel just a tiny bit better.

    Also, it’s a good outlet. I feel comfortable on my own site, not bound by the limitations (and general self-consciousness) of social media. That’s something I value on a personal level, regardless of who does (or doesn’t) read it.

  • START PODCAST
    I’ve been procrastinating on this for months, though it wasn’t until recently that I figured out why. I’m intimidated as hell by the idea, to the point where I’ve convinced myself that it’ll be a failure. Why? I honestly don’t know.

    My goal is to get to the bottom of (and hopefully conquer) that fear. I still want to start a podcast, preferably at some point this year.

  • FINISH BLANKET
    For the first time in my life, I managed to crochet an entire blanket. All that’s left is the edging (a few hours of work). I set it aside about a year ago, and I just haven’t gotten back to it. That needs to change… it really would be nice to finish the damn thing.

SELF CARE

  • EXERCISE DAILY
    As with my writing goal, I’m hoping to exercise at least four days a week (208 days). I know that sounds like a lot, but I’m starting really small. My plan is to gradually build a habit with as little pressure as possible.

FUN STUFF

  • READ 50 BOOKS
    One book a week? Easy enough.
  • WATCH 50 MOVIES
    I rarely watch movies aside from old favorites. This year, I’m challenging myself to watch 50 movies I’ve never seen before.

MISCELLANEOUS

  • SAVE MONEY
    Hoping to do this on a weekly basis, even if it’s just a little bit at a time.
  • AVOID POLITICAL INTERACTION
    I wrote an entire post about this a few weeks ago, so I won’t elaborate too much. Basically, I just want to keep politics to a minimum/focus more on other things, especially when it comes to my friendships.
  • AVOID SHITTY PEOPLE
    My boundaries have gotten a lot stronger over the past few years, and I intend to keep it that way. I will not be baited by emotionally manipulative/abusive people, nor will I put up with anyone who refuses to own up to their own bullshit. Maybe I was willing to put up with that in my 20s, but my 40s? No fucking way.

So yeah, that’s all 15 of my resolutions. 🙂 We’ll see how I do…

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And Thus It Begins (Again)

Each November, I participate in NaNoWriMo. I do this because I love to write, not to mention that I thoroughly enjoy the challenge.

As someone who’s never been into sports, this is my version of running a marathon. Over the past nine years, I’ve written while sick, lost countless hours of sleep, even pushed through in times of crisis to hit that word count. Why do I do it? I think it’s for the guarantee. No matter what happens during those other 11 months, I can always count on November to catch up on my writing.

This year, I’m looking forward to it even more than usual. A long illness last winter followed by severe writer’s block in the spring… by summer, I’d given up on writing, so discouraged that I couldn’t even bring myself to try.

But then September rolled around. October settled in, and I knew I couldn’t put it off any longer. I started on Monday, struggling through (and repeatedly rewriting) the single paragraph that caused my writer’s block all those months ago.

On Tuesday, it was slightly easier. Several more paragraphs, and I felt myself moving forward, even if the pace was rather slow. Wednesday? I just completed an entire scene (around 1600 words) and… well, I can’t even describe how I feel right now. It’s a sensation that has eluded me since last November, the sheer bliss of losing myself completely. That incredible moment when the struggle stops and the words just flow… there’s no way to articulate how much I’ve missed that feeling.

It’s only been three days, but compared to what I’ve been able to do for the rest of this year (virtually nothing)? It feels like a major accomplishment. Getting back to my fiction feels so damn good… all I want is keep the momentum going, finish my works in progress, and knock NaNoWriMo right out of the fucking park.

Hey, I’ve done it (and won it) for the last nine years. Why not make it a decade-long streak? 🙂

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Potential Podcast Art

Nine possible covers for my podcast (click to enlarge).

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